A Thousand Flames You were the sum of a thousand flames I, a moth drawn to your endless light A palate of cinders and ash Yours was an unimaginable warmth Mine was solace from the storm Ours was a love purified by fading embers I could never tell where you began and I ended For my hands are tattooed still with scorch marks of your touch And if I could live it again, certain in how it ends A lifetime would be fair price, for another fleeting moment of us Forgive my courage today, for the wind grows ever stronger A new storm is approaching and the season turns Too long have I huddled over this dying flame, it aches to be free There is no wood left to burn But know that your warmth has never left me
I sit here today as I try to ponder on the inner workings of my mind on this silent afternoon, the Sunday after my escapades. It is something I often do after a long bout of extroverted-ness, my chronic condition of expanding more energy than I would care to on various musings of life. So much has happened in the past three weeks, but most of it too private to tell-tale on a public blog. But know this: there's a bitter coffee to my right, just within reach, and then the ever pervasive sound of the ceiling fan running as my mind tries to count its rotations with accuracy. I sit donning a jade shalwar kameez, buttons of the sleeves in place, back straight as it soothes the pain, I am back in the confines of sunny equatorial Lahore, the city of gardens, home to guardrails of the Punjab. I am reminded, suddenly and somberly of my grandfather, typing as I typed, with both hands on his keyboard, fingers pushing buttons, the learnings of his typewriter days being translated t...
Logic is the fundamental basis of how cognizant, self-aware people form their decision. It influences things as mundane as grocery purchases, to things as vital as who to choose as a life partner (I would like to believe the spectrum has those two ends, or maybe grocery shopping can be replaced with choosing which socks to wear, anyway, I digress) For the longest period of time I think I was pretty illogical. I made decisions based on impulse, I made life choices based on past experiences rather than anticipating their impact and long term consequences. Call me stupid, I wouldn't mind, since I call myself more harsh things than that anyway, because its true, I was stupid. Extremely Stupid But it doesn't end there. I wasn't JUST stupid, I was illogical. I didn't know how to think, and I wasn't taught how to think. This extreme oversight in my education is not a fluke in my opinion. You've probably noticed this too; the vast majority of people that surround you a...
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