Internal Convolution
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Taking out time to understand myself has been a rather convoluted journey
Im reminded - as I pen this - of how my grandfather would sit on his computer and type away, his neurons firing, his muscles contracting, mitochondria powering his every move as he brought his books into existence - yet today he is no more. I buried him.
The stillness of his grave is tattooed under my eyelids, the dampness of wet soil does not leave my nostrils and no matter how many times I wipe my hands, they still bleed the color of the Earth
To think that someone so powerless, so motionless, could have felt the emotions I feel, or have gone through the same thoughts as mine, is to believe that I too, despite all my current vigor, will one day end up an exponentially faint memory
And I don’t know how that makes me feel yet.
Life is a constant struggle. We give too much importance to work and yet in a longing for purpose, I find myself wishing I could dedicate myself to one thing as purely as Cristiano has dedicated himself to Football, Torvalds to Linux, or Musk to the musings of his mind.
Then and only then is success not only possible, but inevitable. But if we are to end, what is the meaning of that success, I wonder.
“To know thyself is to know existence”
It seems I am still unfamiliar with existence.
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